OMG new shoes!! March 19, 2007

Alright, here;s the thing, I want new shoes. The ones the model on the right is wearing.

They are so pretty I just need money.. :/ which I will have as soon as I sold my synthesizer yeeeey I love them shoes ^_^

Xx

I was tagged.. March 2, 2007

I was tagged by Shauna

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1. I dye my hair about every month usually different colors..

2. I’m obsessed with forums

3. I’ve been anorexic in second and third grade and am still obsessed with my weight

4. I’m bisexual and love meeting other bisexual and gay people

5. I have just a few good friends

6. I sometimes enjoy fighting with people

7. My mum thought I was pregnant but I was just ill..

8. I have a weird sence of humor that nearly no one understands

9. I fantasize a lot

10. I’m not going to tag someone after this because I am too lazy to do so (A)

My socks part I February 13, 2007

Long time no seen huh? Well, it’s going to be a short one today and it’s dedicated to Lonnie my sweet sister. Today I am wearing socks. High ones to be specific, about the height of my knees. They’re black and white and they have stripes. I bought them in London last December and I like them a lot. I wore them in my new fake allstars today. I bought those yesterday in Lille

Talking about Lille, I went there like yesterday with school.. For a day. It’s about 4 hours by bus to get there. We left at 6 am and it took us 5 and a half hours to get in Lille since we were stuck in a traffic jam. Damnit. But when we got there me and Guido got our asses to work and we interviewed a couple of people. He interviewed a nice lady who didn’t live in Lille, I interviewed three students who lived in Lille for their entire lives and recommended the beer, the fries and the mayonaise, which were also belgian influences. After the interviews we went to see a building, and then we followed the students’ advice and went to a café to try out the beer in Lille. We went to the café with Nienke, Eefje, Lise and Jolijn and it was pretty cosy, eventhough it rained. Eefje wanted to try a Martini and she asked if it was nice. Then Guido was like: yeah it’s nice when it’s hot. And me and Eefje were like: that’s gross!! But it turned out he ment the weather should be nice and hot before you should drink a martini. We agreed to that, and eefje, jolijn en nienke decided to have hot coco, lise had 7-up, guido had guinness I guess, and I had a Hoegaarden myself. Die hard beer fans anyways, when we went back to the bus I saw my very pretty new “all stars” and I bought them.

Now I’m nice and warm in my room, waiting till it’s time to go to Thomas

Tomorrow it’s valentines day enjoy it

*hugs*

Yesterday and today January 28, 2007

Woohoo yesterday I went to maasticht to do a tutorial group (talking about problems and all, it’s problem based learning will explain later) have a lecture about the problem and the solve the problem in tutorialgroup part 2. And we went to see the library and it had books and then we went to a local café, the preuverij, short preuv, had some (free!!!!) drinks and then went to a friend of mine who made us diner which I enjoyed a lot. And then we went back home by train, missed the train we wanted to have, had to wait for the next train, which came half an hour later… And in the train we had to switch from train to bus, to train again and switch train AGAIN and then take a cab, since we missed our bus home. And we nearly missed the train to Nijmegen from Den Bosch!! Which would’ve been horrible. But we didn’t fortunately and now I’m here, typing this, understanding it if you couldn’t follow it, since I am soo hyper that I don’t feel like making a logic order..

sorry for that..

And by the way, problem based learning in short:
*group
*text
*Brainstorm with the group, who know what
*group formulates problem and makes questions
*finding information (this time it was in a lecture, normally we’d have to check out books and stuff (in the library that has books! )
*solve problem in second tutorial group

It’s as easy as that

and Now I’m going to put on make-up, then do some homework, meet up with tina and sing for a while, then me and thomas are going to go to the movies, and then we’re going to eat at his place.. and then go home again

and this all by bike, since I do not trust trains and busses anymore for a while..

Frustration January 24, 2007

Aaaargggh my mum does not allow me to go see Thomas today, and it frustrates me. I probably don’t have time tomorrow, and friday I have to work, and I don’t know what time I’ll be home from Maastricht saturday.. Sunday I’m practicing music with Tina so now I don’t know when to meet up with him again…..

Another frustration is music. Well my music teacher. I know he doesn’t like me. And now he gave a 3.8 for something I worked soo fucking hard on. I listened like 7 hours of music (I listened everything at least twice, and it was 14 times a music piece of 15 minutes so.. -.-’) and I practiced like everything. And then he still gives me a fucking bad grade!! Really I HATE that man. normally I dont hate fast, I don’t hate at all. But I just hate him… -.-’ well strongly dislike him and I wouldn;t mind if he got hit by a bus ##@%^%&%# anyways..

I’ve been totally binging just a few minutes ago, so I probably gained some weight again.. I was doing so well upto today.. again something to be frustrated about. and I don’t know what to write in my rationale for english.. -.-’

This must be a bad day

Oh and I had a 7 for german

Beauty from pain part 2 January 15, 2007

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0BP7KMrPp3g 

So here’s the song I posted a while ago.. By Superchick as it said in the bottom.. Anyways, I won’t be blogging much for this week, since I’ve got school exams.. 11 of them.. so..

wish me luck..

Beauty from pain January 11, 2007

The song that suits my day.. So beautiful yet so sad..

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night And then the darkness surrounds me

I know I’m alive

But I feel like I’ve died

And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made

I try to keep warm but I just grow colder

I feel like I’m slipping away

[Chorus]

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I’ve cried my last

There’ll be beauty from pain

Though it won’t be today

Someday I’ll hope again

And there’ll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I wonder why God let me walk through this place

And though I can’t understand why this happened

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how You’ve brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

Chorus

Here and I am at the end of me(at the end of me)

Trying to hold to what I can’t see

I forgot how to hope

This night’s been so long

I cling to your promise there will be a dawn

Chorus

Superchick with Beauty from pain

Dentist :( January 10, 2007

Hey hey,

My tooth hurts like hell. I went to the dentist today, because he saw on a picture that I had an empty molar (like to huge holes, but it’s impossible to see them on the outside). It didn’t hurt though, so I wasn’t really bothered by it, I thought I had just a tiny hole. Wrong. He told me I needed anaesthetics, so he stuffed my upper left jaw full with stuff, so that I wouldn’t feel a thing. Promissed. Promiss broken, I still fellt that he hit a nerve.. Nice.. NOT. anyway, after he drilled it open and closed it again, I was free to go. I was glad that I didn’t have pain afterwards, but I soon noticed I didn’t feel ANYTHING anymore in that part of my face.. greeeaat, well I had some fun with it actually I couldn’t talk properly anymore so everyone including me laughed about it.

 but now the anaesthetics run out, so my tooth hurts like hell, and it’s pulling through to my ear, my eyebrow and my head. I can’t remember having a headache that was as awful as this.. I can’t even chew properly, I ate like noodlesoup so I didn’t have to chew, and I had some icecream, which was really really good

And tonight Thomas is coming so that should make up for most of the pain even though I can’t really open my mouth because that hurts, I can’t move my jaw to the left ’cause that hurts and I can’t stand loud noises, ’cause that hurts. Nor can I stand cold drinks. I’m such a poor girl, feel sorry for me well anyways.. It’s actually quite sad that the dentist drilled in my molar, it didn’t hurt a bit before so..

Aaah well,  at least I won’t have a rotten tooth now

Ciao *hugs*

Last night January 9, 2007

Gah, another weird dream again, I dreamed I was angry with a schoolfriend of mine, and then someone else forced me to be mean against him. Usually I’m not that easily persuaded in hurting someone, but this time it was different, that other person was putting a drawingpin in my head, and it hurted sooo freaking much. He just pushed it in. Anyways, then I like did everything to the poor guy he(the guy with the pin) asked me to do.

and then I woke up

gotta go.. school..

ciao*hugs*

School and weird dreams January 8, 2007

Jeeeez was my day boring today or what. I went to school, heard I had loads of stuff to do before soon, followed like 3 lessons, had periods off after that and worked on some homework, and after that I was supposed to go to german class, and I went, and the teacher decided me and nienke could do the work at home to and the rest of the class would come tomorrow instead of today so they have to go to german class and nienke and me don’t but that hour we just did some dutch document work, which wasn’t very interesting either, and I came home, I drank some and started doing my homework, so I read hamlet for a bit, and then finished of the play I’ve been working on.. and now I’m here posting

 More interesting maybe is what I dreamed last night, which was really odd actually.. I dreamed some kids were throwing stones, and one accidentally hit me with one, and I came to him and I was being very mean and all, and later on I drove on on my bike and I got hit by a blue van in the street I always drive when I’m going home after school. And my mom saw me, and she started crying. The day after everything was okay again, and then I got in the car with a very old man who has the same order every saturday in the bakery where I work. The freak drove on the wrong side of the road and almost got us crashed. Later on when I was safe at home, some people came over and we had pancakesoup (never heard of it before, but my mind’s just twisted I guess) and our dog freaked out to the little kid that was there too, and then he became all evil and one eye became light blue and the other red and it was sooo scary!

And then I woke up.

The scary thing is, when I drove home today from school, I saw little boys throwing rocks, and the exact same blue van as the one that hit me in my dreams.. well I stopped biking for a moment and I waited till the van passed, I was sooo scared

Oh oh oh, and I’m going to teach the daughter of a friend of my mom english her mom asked me to teach her, because the poor girl only gets really low grades for english class so.. And she asked me what I wanted in return and I just don’t know.. can’t think of anything, and I wouldn’t know what’s appropriate to ask.. *doubts*

 yeah well, that’s about it for today.. wondering what I’m going to dream about tonight

Ciao

*hugs*