OMG new shoes!! March 19, 2007

Alright, here;s the thing, I want new shoes. The ones the model on the right is wearing.

They are so pretty I just need money.. :/ which I will have as soon as I sold my synthesizer yeeeey I love them shoes ^_^

Xx

I was tagged.. March 2, 2007

I was tagged by Shauna

RULES: Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. No tag backs!

1. I dye my hair about every month usually different colors..

2. I’m obsessed with forums

3. I’ve been anorexic in second and third grade and am still obsessed with my weight

4. I’m bisexual and love meeting other bisexual and gay people

5. I have just a few good friends

6. I sometimes enjoy fighting with people

7. My mum thought I was pregnant but I was just ill..

8. I have a weird sence of humor that nearly no one understands

9. I fantasize a lot

10. I’m not going to tag someone after this because I am too lazy to do so (A)

My socks part I February 13, 2007

Long time no seen huh? Well, it’s going to be a short one today and it’s dedicated to Lonnie my sweet sister. Today I am wearing socks. High ones to be specific, about the height of my knees. They’re black and white and they have stripes. I bought them in London last December and I like them a lot. I wore them in my new fake allstars today. I bought those yesterday in Lille

Talking about Lille, I went there like yesterday with school.. For a day. It’s about 4 hours by bus to get there. We left at 6 am and it took us 5 and a half hours to get in Lille since we were stuck in a traffic jam. Damnit. But when we got there me and Guido got our asses to work and we interviewed a couple of people. He interviewed a nice lady who didn’t live in Lille, I interviewed three students who lived in Lille for their entire lives and recommended the beer, the fries and the mayonaise, which were also belgian influences. After the interviews we went to see a building, and then we followed the students’ advice and went to a café to try out the beer in Lille. We went to the café with Nienke, Eefje, Lise and Jolijn and it was pretty cosy, eventhough it rained. Eefje wanted to try a Martini and she asked if it was nice. Then Guido was like: yeah it’s nice when it’s hot. And me and Eefje were like: that’s gross!! But it turned out he ment the weather should be nice and hot before you should drink a martini. We agreed to that, and eefje, jolijn en nienke decided to have hot coco, lise had 7-up, guido had guinness I guess, and I had a Hoegaarden myself. Die hard beer fans anyways, when we went back to the bus I saw my very pretty new “all stars” and I bought them.

Now I’m nice and warm in my room, waiting till it’s time to go to Thomas

Tomorrow it’s valentines day enjoy it

*hugs*

Yesterday and today January 28, 2007

Woohoo yesterday I went to maasticht to do a tutorial group (talking about problems and all, it’s problem based learning will explain later) have a lecture about the problem and the solve the problem in tutorialgroup part 2. And we went to see the library and it had books and then we went to a local café, the preuverij, short preuv, had some (free!!!!) drinks and then went to a friend of mine who made us diner which I enjoyed a lot. And then we went back home by train, missed the train we wanted to have, had to wait for the next train, which came half an hour later… And in the train we had to switch from train to bus, to train again and switch train AGAIN and then take a cab, since we missed our bus home. And we nearly missed the train to Nijmegen from Den Bosch!! Which would’ve been horrible. But we didn’t fortunately and now I’m here, typing this, understanding it if you couldn’t follow it, since I am soo hyper that I don’t feel like making a logic order..

sorry for that..

And by the way, problem based learning in short:
*group
*text
*Brainstorm with the group, who know what
*group formulates problem and makes questions
*finding information (this time it was in a lecture, normally we’d have to check out books and stuff (in the library that has books! )
*solve problem in second tutorial group

It’s as easy as that

and Now I’m going to put on make-up, then do some homework, meet up with tina and sing for a while, then me and thomas are going to go to the movies, and then we’re going to eat at his place.. and then go home again

and this all by bike, since I do not trust trains and busses anymore for a while..

Frustration January 24, 2007

Aaaargggh my mum does not allow me to go see Thomas today, and it frustrates me. I probably don’t have time tomorrow, and friday I have to work, and I don’t know what time I’ll be home from Maastricht saturday.. Sunday I’m practicing music with Tina so now I don’t know when to meet up with him again…..

Another frustration is music. Well my music teacher. I know he doesn’t like me. And now he gave a 3.8 for something I worked soo fucking hard on. I listened like 7 hours of music (I listened everything at least twice, and it was 14 times a music piece of 15 minutes so.. -.-’) and I practiced like everything. And then he still gives me a fucking bad grade!! Really I HATE that man. normally I dont hate fast, I don’t hate at all. But I just hate him… -.-’ well strongly dislike him and I wouldn;t mind if he got hit by a bus ##@%^%&%# anyways..

I’ve been totally binging just a few minutes ago, so I probably gained some weight again.. I was doing so well upto today.. again something to be frustrated about. and I don’t know what to write in my rationale for english.. -.-’

This must be a bad day

Oh and I had a 7 for german

Beauty from pain January 11, 2007

The song that suits my day.. So beautiful yet so sad..

The lights go out all around me

One last candle to keep out the night And then the darkness surrounds me

I know I’m alive

But I feel like I’ve died

And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over

My dreams ran like sand through the fists that I made

I try to keep warm but I just grow colder

I feel like I’m slipping away

[Chorus]

After all this has passed

I still will remain

After I’ve cried my last

There’ll be beauty from pain

Though it won’t be today

Someday I’ll hope again

And there’ll be beauty from pain

You will bring beauty from my pain

My whole world is the pain inside me

The best I can do is just get through the day

When life before is only a memory

I wonder why God let me walk through this place

And though I can’t understand why this happened

I know that I will when I look back someday

And see how You’ve brought beauty from ashes

And made me as gold purified through these flames

Chorus

Here and I am at the end of me(at the end of me)

Trying to hold to what I can’t see

I forgot how to hope

This night’s been so long

I cling to your promise there will be a dawn

Chorus

Superchick with Beauty from pain

Dentist :( January 10, 2007

Hey hey,

My tooth hurts like hell. I went to the dentist today, because he saw on a picture that I had an empty molar (like to huge holes, but it’s impossible to see them on the outside). It didn’t hurt though, so I wasn’t really bothered by it, I thought I had just a tiny hole. Wrong. He told me I needed anaesthetics, so he stuffed my upper left jaw full with stuff, so that I wouldn’t feel a thing. Promissed. Promiss broken, I still fellt that he hit a nerve.. Nice.. NOT. anyway, after he drilled it open and closed it again, I was free to go. I was glad that I didn’t have pain afterwards, but I soon noticed I didn’t feel ANYTHING anymore in that part of my face.. greeeaat, well I had some fun with it actually I couldn’t talk properly anymore so everyone including me laughed about it.

 but now the anaesthetics run out, so my tooth hurts like hell, and it’s pulling through to my ear, my eyebrow and my head. I can’t remember having a headache that was as awful as this.. I can’t even chew properly, I ate like noodlesoup so I didn’t have to chew, and I had some icecream, which was really really good

And tonight Thomas is coming so that should make up for most of the pain even though I can’t really open my mouth because that hurts, I can’t move my jaw to the left ’cause that hurts and I can’t stand loud noises, ’cause that hurts. Nor can I stand cold drinks. I’m such a poor girl, feel sorry for me well anyways.. It’s actually quite sad that the dentist drilled in my molar, it didn’t hurt a bit before so..

Aaah well,  at least I won’t have a rotten tooth now

Ciao *hugs*

Nothing on my mind part 2 January 7, 2007

Yey here I am again

 I’m starting to be a real blogaddict now (A) anyways, I finally finished my letter yey ^_^ and I’m like writing the script for a play we’re doing with some people from school, everyone has said to do something on stage and it’s my job to write a story of it.. Unfortunately for the nondutchies it’s in dutch, and unfortunately for everyone who’s not in, I’m not going to publish it on my blog :p I wrote some poems for it, and some songs, one complete song with my own melody and all, and two other songs with the melody of known songs: bohemian rapsody by queen ofcourse, and courage by superchick. Both great songs, and both catchy tunes at least, that’s what I think

anyway, I still have to write an analyses of my letter, but that’s pretty easy, just have to write what I wanted to do, what the target audience was etc. and since it’s a letter, it’s pretty obvious the target audience is the one I’m sending it to, hello?!

Dinner was delicious, and I especially liked the dessert; tiramisu but unfortunately I ate loads and loads of it, so I felt a bit sick afterwards, and I felt really bad because I know how many calories are in that evil tiramisu! I’ll just do some extra situps tonight.. and go back to dieting very very strictly tomorrow again

Alrighty, going to write my analyses now, to get some extra points, and then I’ll go to bed or perhaps watch some tv..

Ciao! *hugs*

Nothing on my mind January 7, 2007

Yesterday evening was really really nice I totally enjoyed myself looking at the bands and all And Thomas’s mom seemed to like the book I bought her for her birthday, “The Devil wears Prada”. Aaaand I bought a lovely coat It’s gorgeous; long, till over my knees, black, slim fit and got a lot of buttons on it and a very big colar ^_^

 For now I’m not really doing a lot.. Yeah writing a letter for english class, for my IB exam.. but I just can’t write anything anymore in it.. Lost my inspiration. It’s based on the book The Buddha of Suburbia and I really loved the book, honestly. And I like the letter I’m writing too, it’s one from Karim to his parents saying he’s bisexual, and it tells some experiences he’s had.. And some he wanted to have but didn’t have. But now I’m stuck. Need to wash my brains or something, but I don’t know how :p and it would be pretty odd.

 Anyway, just about one or two hours ago I managed not to eat all the chocolate that was put in front of me. Loads and loads of white chocolate, just screaming my name.. That was f*#@!^& hard, but I didn’t touch any of it and that makes me pretty proud of myself

 Oh and by the way, I’m cold.. my hands are freezing and my back hurts. Yeah yeah I know, like you even care :p

Yeah well, I guess that’s about it for now.

Oh no:) I’ll tell you something about last night Well the bands were really good The singer of deicide wasn’t there because of “family problems”, but we guessed he just had diarrhoea, or that he likes to have sex with added shit and his wife had diarrhoea so he had to stay home to take it all.. yes pretty gross.. But besides the diarrhoea story, the show had to go on. So Seth from a dutch band stood in for the singer. He didn’t know the words ofcourse, so he read them from a piece of paper. Eventhough that looked a bit silly, he did an amazing job and didn’t go wrong (that I could notice). The other bands were awsome too. Especially Psycroptic, they had great music Visceral bleeding was really good as well, but the singer looked a bit odd with his bald head and moustache. It was pretty crowded with people, so it was really hot inside. And we stood the entire time so my back started to hurt, but I had a terrific evening

My dad just called me for dinner, so I guess I got to go :p

yummie spiced potatoes

Ciao *kiss*

Work January 6, 2007

Gah, I had to work today from 5.30 till 13.15 and my boss even took half an hour off my worktime I hate that! She like gave me loads of work, and wanted me to finish it earlier than I could *grrrr* Well anyways, in a little while I’m going to buy a new wintercoat I hope, and a present for thomas’s mother, since it’s her birthday and I’m going there. And after the birthday me and Thomas are going to see deicide and some other bands.. I’m pretty excited about it, don’t really know what to expect Yeah, I’ve heard like a few songs, and they were pretty cool

 Going to put on some make-up now, and then Tina’ll be here any minute I guess

 ciao *kiss*