Frustration January 24, 2007

Aaaargggh my mum does not allow me to go see Thomas today, and it frustrates me. I probably don’t have time tomorrow, and friday I have to work, and I don’t know what time I’ll be home from Maastricht saturday.. Sunday I’m practicing music with Tina so now I don’t know when to meet up with him again…..

Another frustration is music. Well my music teacher. I know he doesn’t like me. And now he gave a 3.8 for something I worked soo fucking hard on. I listened like 7 hours of music (I listened everything at least twice, and it was 14 times a music piece of 15 minutes so.. -.-’) and I practiced like everything. And then he still gives me a fucking bad grade!! Really I HATE that man. normally I dont hate fast, I don’t hate at all. But I just hate him… -.-’ well strongly dislike him and I wouldn;t mind if he got hit by a bus ##@%^%&%# anyways..

I’ve been totally binging just a few minutes ago, so I probably gained some weight again.. I was doing so well upto today.. again something to be frustrated about. and I don’t know what to write in my rationale for english.. -.-’

This must be a bad day

Oh and I had a 7 for german

Nothing on my mind part 2 January 7, 2007

Yey here I am again

 I’m starting to be a real blogaddict now (A) anyways, I finally finished my letter yey ^_^ and I’m like writing the script for a play we’re doing with some people from school, everyone has said to do something on stage and it’s my job to write a story of it.. Unfortunately for the nondutchies it’s in dutch, and unfortunately for everyone who’s not in, I’m not going to publish it on my blog :p I wrote some poems for it, and some songs, one complete song with my own melody and all, and two other songs with the melody of known songs: bohemian rapsody by queen ofcourse, and courage by superchick. Both great songs, and both catchy tunes at least, that’s what I think

anyway, I still have to write an analyses of my letter, but that’s pretty easy, just have to write what I wanted to do, what the target audience was etc. and since it’s a letter, it’s pretty obvious the target audience is the one I’m sending it to, hello?!

Dinner was delicious, and I especially liked the dessert; tiramisu but unfortunately I ate loads and loads of it, so I felt a bit sick afterwards, and I felt really bad because I know how many calories are in that evil tiramisu! I’ll just do some extra situps tonight.. and go back to dieting very very strictly tomorrow again

Alrighty, going to write my analyses now, to get some extra points, and then I’ll go to bed or perhaps watch some tv..

Ciao! *hugs*

Nothing on my mind January 7, 2007

Yesterday evening was really really nice I totally enjoyed myself looking at the bands and all And Thomas’s mom seemed to like the book I bought her for her birthday, “The Devil wears Prada”. Aaaand I bought a lovely coat It’s gorgeous; long, till over my knees, black, slim fit and got a lot of buttons on it and a very big colar ^_^

 For now I’m not really doing a lot.. Yeah writing a letter for english class, for my IB exam.. but I just can’t write anything anymore in it.. Lost my inspiration. It’s based on the book The Buddha of Suburbia and I really loved the book, honestly. And I like the letter I’m writing too, it’s one from Karim to his parents saying he’s bisexual, and it tells some experiences he’s had.. And some he wanted to have but didn’t have. But now I’m stuck. Need to wash my brains or something, but I don’t know how :p and it would be pretty odd.

 Anyway, just about one or two hours ago I managed not to eat all the chocolate that was put in front of me. Loads and loads of white chocolate, just screaming my name.. That was f*#@!^& hard, but I didn’t touch any of it and that makes me pretty proud of myself

 Oh and by the way, I’m cold.. my hands are freezing and my back hurts. Yeah yeah I know, like you even care :p

Yeah well, I guess that’s about it for now.

Oh no:) I’ll tell you something about last night Well the bands were really good The singer of deicide wasn’t there because of “family problems”, but we guessed he just had diarrhoea, or that he likes to have sex with added shit and his wife had diarrhoea so he had to stay home to take it all.. yes pretty gross.. But besides the diarrhoea story, the show had to go on. So Seth from a dutch band stood in for the singer. He didn’t know the words ofcourse, so he read them from a piece of paper. Eventhough that looked a bit silly, he did an amazing job and didn’t go wrong (that I could notice). The other bands were awsome too. Especially Psycroptic, they had great music Visceral bleeding was really good as well, but the singer looked a bit odd with his bald head and moustache. It was pretty crowded with people, so it was really hot inside. And we stood the entire time so my back started to hurt, but I had a terrific evening

My dad just called me for dinner, so I guess I got to go :p

yummie spiced potatoes

Ciao *kiss*

Losing weight January 5, 2007

Alrighty, I figured out I wanted to lose weight. I still want to lose weight actually, that’s why I’m posting. Keeps me going

anyway to not get of the subject too much, I put my mind into the “lose weight mode” and I decided to quit eating candy and cookies, just stick to breakfast, lunch and dinner and nothing more. Yeah, water.

 And it’s working I lost 2 kilo’s in total already which is pretty good in like.. 1.5 weeks no coke or sugar whatsoever.. It’s hard sometimes, but just taking a look in the mirror keeps me going

 Feels good ^_^